what I want to DO

Hmmmm theres a lot I want to do but another want to BE  is simplistic.  I want to be a baker. What I want to DO is work for myself, disneyland,  and my family. I want to help myself so that I can help others, I want to follow through on myself.  When I was a kid I had a dad who made promises to me and broke them all. I kind of do that to myself nowa days. What I want to DO is commit to myself, grow, and figure out what to really do to accomplish my dreams. I want to change the way I look at things and think about things, almost morph back to who j was when I was youngr before my favorite people and dog passed away and things got harder, but if I really did that I would be stuck in that ignorant state, so what I really wanna DO, is expand my mind, open it up with what knowledge and strength ive gained, to become stronger and overcome to become something for me, and the people around me. I want to paint more , read more, sew more, listen more, and understand more. Not like I used too, but now.